Tuesday, December 9, 2008

prime directive: exterminate.

I had to wake up at 6AM and take the metro back to Silver Spring so I could go to class. I definitely got up in a "fuck everything" mood. It's 10:30 and I should be in English but I'm too tired and I just don't care anymore. If I had the option, I would quit everything and be in a band full time. Fuck the future, live for now.

On the metro ride, I really began to like Maryland. It was just me and 4 or 5 other people on the train and the entire area came off as real peaceful and nice. An hour later, I stepped off the train and fucking hated it. It was freezing, I was surrounded by people and I was late. I can't wait for someone to drop the bomb and wipe everyone off the face of the planet. I don't care if the person is black, white, asian, latino or whatever. Just wanna see some skin melt, I fucking hate you.

I like being alone a lot more than I like being around people. I usually just try to find someone to talk to all night or kinda keep to myself. My thoughts come out and they don't make sense or I come off as needy and weird. Whatever, I'd rather stay home or hangout by myself nowadays. I'm not growing up, I'm just burning out.


even with the silly synth part

 


1 comment:

Anonymous said...

growing up sucks...self abuse has a good line about it.